Coming Out of the Broom Closet 

This is me.

At 36 years of age, I just began to live an authentic life. I am no longer afraid to risk rejection, humiliation, or scorn. I am not easily embarrassed. I do not fear what people think of me.

For the first 35 years of my life, I existed in two worlds simultaneously. The contrast was so glaring that I feared I would never be able to bring the two parts together and still be loved by my family or respected by my peers.

Part One: I am what mainstream society expects of me.

 I excel in school and begin taking college classes at 16. I marry and have my first child at 18, and finish college with my Bachelor’s degree in Elementary Education at 21. I begin working at an exhibit company that focused on environmental and cultural sites of interest throughout the world. With the birth of my second child I begin teaching students with disabilities at an elementary school to be closer to my children. Six years later I take a position with the Florida Department of Education where I support students on a statewide level. I earn a Master’s Degree in Educational Leadership, and advance to the University of South Florida where I expand my skills to include web development. I provide for my family, pay my bills, vote, serve as a member of my homeowner’s association, and try to be an upstanding citizen.

Part Two: I am rejected by mainstream society.

I am a mystic. I read constantly and my library includes books on psychic development, philosophy, astrology, Buddhism, and tarot. I am drawn to religion and spirituality but have lost faith in organized religion. I accept Jesus as a profound teacher and role model but do not believe he is the only messenger of God. I sit in nature for extended periods of time trying to connect to the earth and my spirit guides. I believe in spirit guides. I read tarot cards and I believe that they provide insight and guidance into our daily lives. I surround myself with crystals that I believe contain positive energy and vibrations. I bathe in salt and essential oils when I feel down to cleanse my aura. I believe some people have gifts that allow them to see auras, communicate with spirits, and see the future. I track the phases of the moon and align my intentions accordingly, and will complete certain rituals that I believe manifest my desires. Some would call me a witch, but I don’t really believe in the Devil.

Fear

For many years I kept the two parts of myself separate and few knew the whole truth of who I was. Only my closest friends knew the “real” me. I was afraid and ashamed to reveal my interests and beliefs for fear of people thinking I was crazy or just plain stupid. How could an intellectual believe this crap? I feared that this side of myself would open me up to public scorn or potentially hurt my chances of getting a job in the future.

Mostly, I was afraid of hurting my dear grandmother that I loved deeply. She was the best grandmother that anyone could ever wish for. She was deeply afraid of anything “new age” or “spiritual” as she believed it was from the Devil. She was in her eighties and I didn’t want to do anything that would stress her already fragile heart. A couple of our family members were struggling with addiction to narcotics, stealing and lying to support their habits, and she was deeply hurt and stressed out about this. I would never have forgiven myself for causing her any more stress or risking her health further.

Breakdown

Beginning in February of this year, most of my readings began featuring the Three of Swords in the future position. This card represents deep sorrow, grief, and heartbreak. Naturally, this scared the shit out of me. What it could mean? Would my husband betray me? Was someone going to be hurt? What awful thing lurked around the corner? As a result, I loved deeper, I hugged longer, and I made sure to tell everyone how much I cared about him or her every time we were together.

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Three of Swords, Wild Unknown Tarot deck (Kim Krans)
The Three of Swords came to fruition on May 12th, 2016, and it is a day I will never forget. My beloved grandmother had been in a rehab facility due to an ankle injury for which she required physical therapy. I was going to see her as often as I could, rubbing lavender oil on her bruises and bringing her food that I knew she enjoyed. That afternoon, my mother had visited her after work and found that she was quite ill. She didn’t look right, and she was so weak she couldn’t lift her arms. The staff had not noticed this, but my mother was alarmed and insisted a doctor check her out. The physician was called and he agreed it would be prudent to have her taken to the hospital. My mom was scared, so I decided to join my mother and grandmother just to make sure everything was okay. My grandmother was loaded into an ambulance, and mom and I followed her to the hospital.

Upon arriving at the hospital it became apparent that everything was not okay. The moment we arrived at the Emergency Room, a team of people rushed in. It was determined that her pacemaker had stopped working and her heart was failing. We were immediately barraged with questions about her DNR (Do Not Resuscitate) orders. We were told it was serious and she could die very soon. We had to make frantic calls to try to determine her wishes. After several insane, tear-filled hours, the doctors were able to get her pacemaker working again. It turns out that the rehab facility she was in was not making sure she drank fluids or taking her to the bathroom regularly, and her kidneys failed. It caused her blood levels to become toxic and force her heart out of rhythm. When she was stabilized that night, I told her that her sister and my sister were so worried that they were on their way to see her. She laughed and said, “Well, I ain’t dead yet!” Those were the last words she ever said to me, and it was the last time I saw her smile.

After a moment of hope that she would recover, I awoke the next morning to find out she had slipped into a coma. Various life-saving procedures were tried to revive her, but within the day she was gone. It was May 13, 2016. Friday the 13th.

Even now, months later, I feel a vast emptiness inside as I remember that she is dead. She is not at home in her recliner sitting with my grandpa. I can’t call her and tell about my day. Tears flood down my cheeks as I remember that last moment we had together, and I hope wherever she is that she feels my love for her from beyond the veil.

In my experience, the death of a loved one creates a vacuum in your life that I do not believe will ever be filled. It is such a void that when I allow myself, it swallows me whole and I swim in an ocean of grief and tears. It is a physical sensation of heaviness and emptiness simultaneously that I feel in my chest whenever my mind wanders and I think of her.

I recount this story of loss and grief for two reasons, I suppose. The first is that this is the first time I have written about it, and it is therapeutic to do so. The second is to return to where this story begins, and explain how it took the passing of my grandmother to bring the two sides of me together.

Integration

With my grandmother’s death, I no longer felt I had to conceal who I was. I would have hid it forever if I could have kept her in my life, but that was not possible. For the first time, I was free to be me and to integrate the two parts of myself without shame. I no longer feared what people would think of me if they knew what I did behind closed doors. Fearfully at first, I began to share my metaphysical interests with my family and my close professional colleagues. I then publicly shared information on my website and blog on my personal Facebook page. There was no more “hiding in the broom closet.” This is who I am – take it or leave it.

Death serves as a reminder that life is fleeting. With luck, we might have 100 years to experience all this existence has to offer. No one knows what comes next – NO ONE – and anyone who tells you with certainty that they do is full of shit.

We are not here just to get an education, work, fall in love, raise children, and accrue possessions. In fact many of these things distract us from our true purpose. We are here to be our authentic selves and live the life to which we are destined. We are here to help others and be our best selves. There is so much love and beauty to experience and share with others.

Forget what you think you know about life. In fact, don’t think at all. As Eckhart Tolle says, “You are not your mind.” For five minutes, don’t think. Just be you, in the moment, and be still and silent. Pretend your mind is a puppy and when it begins to think about the laundry, tell it to sit.

Be in the present. The only thing we truly have and are guaranteed is this present moment. Try to live in it and be as authentic as you can be. Every moment that passes is a moment lost. When we come out with confidence and lose the fear of judgment, we inspire others to do the same.

As soon as you are able – and it might not be now (you have your own reasons for holding back) – I encourage you to live without fear and be who you are. People might just surprise you.

*I am so thankful for my mother, for her unconditional love. Though I am not at all the person she would like for me to be, she loves me anyway and never makes me doubt it. I am so blessed to have her in my life.*

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The Genius of Kim Krans

Lost in the Wild (Unknown)

It isn’t often that I get obsessed with artists, writers, and poets. But it happens, and when it does I simply can’t get enough of them. As a result, I will read/listen to/watch as many of their creations as I can get my hands on. Some of my previous obsessions include (in chronological order): Stephen King, Radiohead, Quentin Tarantino, Cormac McCarthy, Arcade Fire, Sylvia Plath, and The National.

My latest obsession is with artist/writer Kim Krans, the creator of the Wild Unknown.

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Photo credit: Portland Apothecary
To begin with, she is beautiful, creative, and intelligent. But my admiration goes far beyond that.  I sincerely admire her creative drive. She has passion and an amazing work ethic that has led her to create music, calendars, a tarot deck, an oracle deck, a children’s book, jewelry, clothing, and more. Her creative vision is unstoppable, and her art will live on forever. As an aspiring writer and artist she is the quintessential role model.

Not that it came easy. Kim worked hard to hone her craft. This is how she answered Portland Apothecary when asked what she turns to for inspiration in her work.

“Aritsts memoirs, biographies, and interviews. Its easy to look at others and think wow, they have it all, their life is perfect, their success came easy, etc. This leads us to feeling disconnected and bummed out. But when you read the actual stories of people’s lives, you hear all that they have gone through to get where they are, all the resistance that could’ve stopped them at any point. Its very uplifting to read stories like this, to know the truth of an artist’s life instead of a projection.”

Girl crush.

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Photo Credit: Live the Moment
It wasn’t long ago that I purchased the Wild Unknown Tarot deck, and I was instantly smitten. It is incredible. So when I learned there was an accompanying oracle deck called the Animal Spirit deck, well, I couldn’t exactly wait until Christmas to get it. I encouraged my husband to buy a new video game and I placed my order ($56 with shipping) guilt-free. He gets his, I get mine.

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The Wild Unknown Animal Spirit Guidebook, $50
The Animal Spirit oracle is the perfect accompaniment to the Wild Unknown tarot. While the Wild Unknown Tarot provides a clear glimpse of all elements of day-to-day life, the Wild Spirit oracle provides a big picture view of our personal development. As you all know, the person we are today is not the person we were last year. We are constantly growing and evolving, changing and morphing. Using this deck in tandem with the tarot deck provides a deeper glimpse at ourselves and our current place in life, as well as where we are going.

Kim fashioned this oracle deck and the animals therein around the five elements – earth, fire, water, air, and spirit. This further enhances the connection of this deck with the world at large.

I decided to use this deck to enhance a reading with the Wild Unknown. The example is below. In recent months I have felt a strong desire to write my own story with tarot and/or continue to education on a completely new path, so I decided to probe that issue.

Question: What do I need to know about my calling to work professionally and/or write about tarot?

 

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Past 

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WU Tarot – Son of Swords (Forceful, Determined)
I jumped into reading professionally and developing a website and blog with a lot of unbridled energy. My efforts were bold, and I certainly didn’t ask for or consider the input of others in moving forward. My efforts were exhaustive and I didn’t take it slow. Within the course of a few days I had a blog and a website completely operational.

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WU Animal Spirit – Cosmic Egg (Completion, Harmony, The Infinite within the Finite)
This is the final card of the Animal Spirit deck, and it represents cosmic completion and the seventh chakra. The decision to move forward with reading professionally and writing about tarot was based on the long journey I took in exploring it. It was only after a long period of dedicated study and practice that it was set into motion. Only when I felt I was fully developed in this area did I proceed.

Present

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WU Tarot – The Lovers (Union, Desire, Joy)
At this point I am reading professionally but certainly not enough to justify leaving my career in education. I have choices to make about where I go from here. I need to decide what my next steps are. I have been feeling torn about where I should focus my attention.  Should I return to school for another advanced degree to further my career in education or psychology, or should I honor my creativity and spirituality and pursue learning that supports my spiritual desires? Or, should I continue my day job and dedicate myself to a daily writing practice? Whatever I choose, I must honor and nourish my relationship with the tarot. It is my passion.

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WU Animal Spirit – Turtle (Ancient Soul, Trusting, At Home in the Self)
The turtle is grounded and connected to life. It collects life experiences and preserves these ideas under its shell for the future. The turtle energy is the energy of writers and storytellers. My current experiences are teaching me where to go from here.

Future

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WU Tarot – 10 of Pentacles (Fulfillment, Abundance)
A welcome sign – there is fulfillment and abundance in the future! The groundwork I lay now will result in success and achievement in the material plane. Whatever I choose to pursue will ensure a firm financial footing for myself and for my family.

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WU Animal Spirit – Frog (Clearing, Cleansing, Healing)
It is imperative that I remember to take care of myself even as abundance abounds on the material plane. There is a tendency in the frog to become overworked and undernourished. Connecting to the source is paramount. Though frogs spend much time on land, water is critical to them! Water is rejuvenating to frogs, so when I feel bogged down I should seek renewal in lakes, rivers, or the ocean. This is an easy task as I live in Florida and am surrounded by all of the above!

I hope you have enjoyed this peek at the Animal Spirit deck. If you enjoy the Wild Unknown I would suggest adding this to your collection when feasible. As the Wild Unknown is the deck I purchased exclusively for my own readings, I simply couldn’t resist and I find it compliments my readings with the deck nicely.

 

Is there any truth to Astrology?

Astrology: Fact or Fantasy?

My interest in the occult borders on fanaticism. I love to read about and explore a variety of esoteric topics like spiritualism, tarot, astrology, Kabbalah, mediumship, and life after death. I suppose this has something to do with my endless search for the meaning of life and my obsession with death and the afterlife. Now don’t get me wrong, I love the physical world and I have an astute respect for science. However, I also have a burning desire to “peek behind the veil” and see a glimpse of something, anything, that will prove to me without a doubt that there is life beyond this world.

Until this point in my life, I have only dipped my toe in the ocean of knowledge that comprises the field of astrology. I have a pretty firm understanding of the 12 zodiacal signs and their characteristics. When someone gives me their birthday I can name their corresponding astrological sign about 90% of the time. This is all about to change. I’m about to dive right into that ocean.

Recently I purchased a book from Books-a-Million entitled The Only Astrology Book You’ll Ever Need. The book was $19.99 and I couldn’t resist buying it, especially because it claimed to have a direct link to a website where you could get your free custom astrological birth chart. Had I bought it on Amazon, I may have discovered before tonight that this book was published a long time ago, and the link to the website has long since expired. There would be no easy birth chart with the corresponding pages highlighted for me. However, I felt better when I realized that you can easily get a free astrological birth chart from a variety of astrology websites.

Tonight I sought out my birth chart and immediately began interpreting it. The first thing I noticed was that on my chart the Sun was in the 8th house – the house of death, regeneration, and legacies. I became alarmed when it suggested that people who have the Sun in their 8th house can suffer from the early loss of their father or husband. Terrified, I dug a little deeper, and was deeply relieved upon reading that the loss of a father doesn’t necessarily have to be a physical death, but rather can refer to the loss of relationship due to a lack of emotional support (this describes my relationship with my father perfectly). Over the course of an hour I read interpretations from many different astrology websites and was stunned at how clearly the descriptions fit me.

The Sun in the 8th House (taken from www.Freespiritmind.com):

Natives who have their natal Sun placed in the 8th house are illuminating the obscure meanings of death, sex and the occult. No matter which their Sun sign is, they become quite Scorpionic in their character, have deep desires and a very strong will. For them, power is very important while sex is a mystical experience of death and rebirth.

This Sun placement creates an urge to go deep into the mysteries of life and death. Such individuals are very interested in discovering the meanings of life, constantly seeking for answers on whether death is the final destination or we continue towards somewhere else. These interests make them attracted to the occult, and they can reach tremendous knowledge about such kind of issues. Observing the big picture of how life functions makes them difficult to be satisfied by common experience and everyday reality. Nevertheless, this placement attracts a lot of supernatural experiences, and many of them are permanently transforming them. Everything that is unexplored or taboo for the masses, fascinates them and attracts them. This is also a reason for the masses to slightly fear them, or consider them morbid and dark.

For those of you who know me, you may find this description of the Sun in the 8th house very interesting and frighteningly accurate. As I mentioned before, I am very interested in the occult and I have a borderline unhealthy obsession with death. I even have the words, “The trouble is you think have time” tattooed on my ribs as a constant reminder of death and an encouragement to live every day to the fullest. Most recently I had my grandmother’s names (both of my grandmothers were named Betty) tattooed on my wrist as a way to honor their influence in my life (my last grandmother passed away on May 13th of this year).

I have only begun my journey into a fuller understanding of astrology, but I am so excited on this new venture. For me, this quick exploration into my birth chart affirms that astrology is definitely more fact than fantasy.

Please comment below if you would like me to draft an interpretation of your birth chart. I’ll be doing two free birth chart interpretations and will choose two people below. To do so, I’ll need the following information:

  • Name
  • Date of Birth
  • Time of Birth (as close as possible)
  • City, State, and Country of Birth

 

Candle Magic 

Modern Candle Magic

People have used candles to strengthen the power of prayer for hundreds of years. Candles are especially common in Catholic churches, where the devout light a candle as they pray to extend their prayer and honor the one for whom the prayer is meant. Vigil candles have been a part of Christian worship since the time of the martyrs.

There is something deeply spiritual about the act of lighting a candle. As the small flame fills the surrounding space with light and warmth, it gives us a sense of peace and connectedness with our world. With the conveniences of modern life, we lost our reverence for the element of fire. For thousands of years our ancestors built entire communities around fire. Fire was life. It offered warmth, protection from animals, and entertainment. It was around a fire that they ate and drank, slept, and told stories into the night. Focusing our attention on a flame connects us with those who came before us, and some say the light of a candle even attracts their spirits.

Candles have a sacred place in every spiritual practice. Those who are learning to meditate may find that it settles their mind to light a candle as they begin. The same is true for tarot readers who seek to enter a relaxed state of mind before beginning their ritual of preparing and reading the cards.

Harnessing Intention with Candle Magic

Everyone wants things in life, but not everyone will receive them. This is because desire alone is not enough to attract the things we want into our life. We must will these things into existence. Our intention is a powerful force in this world. When we set our intention and align our will accordingly, we begin to a manifest the changes in our life that we desire. It is our will that commands our focus, holds our attention, and shapes our actions in the world.

Our will is carried out by our conscience mind. This is why controlling our thoughts is paramount to our success in life. The law of attraction states that “like attracts like,” so if we spend our time focusing on negative things, we will attract more negative things. If we want positive things in our life, we must keep our thoughts positive.

Candles can be used to strengthen our intentions and, with a little planning and forethought, they help the universe bend to our will. When you reach a point in your life when you are truly open to magical thinking and the power of intention (also known as the law of attraction, or the Secret), you are ready to embrace the use of simple spells using candles.

Here are a few simple steps to developing the perfect candle spell.

Step 1) Set your intention. Be very clear about what it is you want. Do you wish to get rid of something, or do you wish to bring something to yourself?
Step 2) Determine the color and size of your candle. The candle must be allowed to burn out completely. For most rituals I use a spell or chime candle that burns out in about 1 -2 hours. When I have a very important matter at hand, I’ll use a vigil candle that burns for about 5 – 9 days. If you must put the candle out, snuff the flame. Do not blow it out. However, my preference is to let it burn (safely) until it goes out.

 Color Guide

White (in addition to these listed uses, white can be used as a substitute for any color as it is the combination of all colors) = Purification, protection, repelling negativity, peace, healing, truth, cleansing, spirituality, clarity, wholeness, and joy.

Black = Banishes negativity. Protection, banishing, inner strength, repelling black magic or harm being directed at you, healing grief and loss, and ending bad habits.

Yellow = Confidence, charm, persuasion, wisdom, mental strength, personal power, self-esteem, cheerfulness, concentration, communication, memory, logic and learning.

Orange = Good fortune, prosperity, luck in legal matters, achieving goals, cleansing negative attitudes, happiness, enthusiasm, power, action, increased libido, energy, and courage.

Pink = Love (friendly, romantic, spiritual, and universal), compassion, forgiveness, joy, harmony, sensitivity, emotional and spiritual healing, and self-love.

Red = Action, passion, love, sex, fertility, potency, energy, health, power, vitality, and courage.

Purple = Psychic abilities, spiritual awakening, inviting visions, intuition, spiritual protection, healing, respect, wisdom, purification, sensitivity, spiritual growth, and dissociating from the ego.

Blue = Spirituality, inner peace, domestic harmony, weight loss, insomnia, wisdom, truth, healing, serenity, patience, kindness, prophetic dreams, improving memory, and storing knowledge.

Brown = Promotes concentration, intuition, locating lost items, healing and protecting animals, stability, clear thinking, telepathic abilities, and decision-making.

Green = Growth, money, prosperity, good luck, abundance, generosity, physical and emotional healing, rejuvenation, renewal, and financial success.

Silver or Gray = Deflect negative influences, protection against otherworldly entities, stabilizes energies, promotes inner peace.

Gold = Attracting the gods, encourages success, wealth, communication, persuasion, victory, masculine energy, and confidence.

Step 3) Determine when to conduct your candle spell based on the phases of the moon (I keep an app on my phone for this purpose).

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New Moon = Powerful time to get rid of something that plagues you, like addiction, disease, or a very negative influence in your life.

Waxing Crescent = Self-improvement, increasing creativity, or inviting an energy into your life.

First Quarter Moon = Attract/bring something to you, like money, a new job, a lover, or the perfect house.

Waxing Gibbous = Giving yourself a boost/kick in the pants to finish something you already started.

Full Moon = Very powerful… It’s important to use to this for something that really matters.

Waning Gibbous = Endings/finding closure (ending relationships or partnerships that are no longer serving you).

Last Quarter = Assisting with transitions and overcoming temptations.

Waning Crescent = Get rid of something that plagues or annoys you (but save serious problems for the New Moon).

Step 4) Choose the appropriate anointing oil. Before a candle is lit, it must be dressed with oil. This infuses the candle with your intention. The right oil depends on your purpose. I use my intuition to choose the right oil. I look for something sweet for attraction, and something earthy/strong to repel.

Here are a few examples:

Cinnamon Oil = Prosperity, finances, and lust/love.

Eucalyptus Oil: Purifying and healing.

Frankincense Oil: Spirituality, psychic abilities, luck, protection, and purification.

Jasmine Oil: Love and money spells, increasing dreams.

Lavender Oil:  Cleansing, healing, and love.

Lemongrass Oil: Mental clarity, breaking habits.

Lime Oil: Energy, fidelity and loyalty.

Orange Oil: Attracting lovers, peace, personal power, and luck.

Patchouli Oil: Mastering skills, growth, love, and physical attraction.

Peppermint Oil: Energy, mental stimulant, enhances vitality.

Vanilla Oil: Lust, mental powers, sexual prowess, personal power rituals.

Ylang-Ylang Oil: Peace, love, and sex.

Once all of these steps have been taken, and the magical night is upon you, conduct your ritual. Begin by gathering your materials, and include a small knife or toothpick for engraving something on the candle. I also write my intention on a small slip of paper. In most cases, I’ll burn the slip of paper completely after I light the candle, but in a very important matter with a large vigil candle I’ll put it underneath the candle as it burns.

Go to a quiet spot. Hold your candle and you think intently on what it is you desire. It is at this moment that your will becomes permanently fixed upon your goal. Visualize yourself in a life where the change you seek has taken place. Take as much time as you need to fully commit to your intention and push as much energy as you can into the candle. Engrave on the candle any words or symbols that relate to your intention. For money, I may engrave a dollar sign. Sometimes I will research a rune that aligns to my wishes and engrave that on the candle. Engrave whatever you wish, or skip this step – it’s up to you.

Anoint (cover) the candle with oil. If you are repelling something, start at the center and work the oil towards the ends. If you are attracting something, start the oil and the ends and work it toward the middle. Focus on your intention very strongly while you anoint the candle.

When you are ready, light the candle. Slide your note into the flame and let it catch fire, then burn it completely.

Remember to ensure your candle burns out completely, and safely. Be sure that no well-meaning family members blow out your candle, as this is said to extinguish your wish.

As the moon goes through a full cycle, hold your intention in your mind and visualize yourself having met your goal regularly. Try your best to master your thoughts and keep them fixated on your intention.

Wait and watch for the universe to respond.

Note: Using a ritual like the one described above, I have successfully quit a 15 year smoking addiction, eliminated an unhealthy fixation on a past event, and got a sizable raise at work. This really works. I must encourage you only to use this ritual for positive purposes. Many in the magical world believe that if you send out negativity or evil into the world that you will receive it back three-fold. I would prefer not to test that theory.

Please feel free to share your thoughts or your own personal practice with candle magic below!

Interviewing your Deck

Bonding with a New Deck

I view my decks as some might view their boyfriends/girlfriends in a polyamorous relationship. One won’t do, but I want a few select lovers. I think if you have too many, you can’t give them all the love and attention they require, nor can they give you what you require. I know collectors and tarot enthusiasts who have hundreds of decks, but this will never be me. I want less than 5 – 10 close friends on my shelf.

Still, it is so exciting to receive a new deck. Whenever you get a new tarot deck, you should immediately get to know it and attempt to bond with it. A tarot deck is a close friend! This probably seems crazy to people who aren’t into tarot, but decks are a sacred thing that you need to bond with and nurture in order to have a good relationship.

Here are some of the usual (wacky) things I do to bond with a new deck:
  • Hold it as much as possible.
  • Shuffle it in my free time.
  • Sleep with it under my pillow.
  • Talk to it.
  • Breathe on it.
  • Take it with me everywhere I go.
  • Burn sage and let the smoke cleanse it.
  • Thank it for what it will teach me.
  • Ask it questions and learn about it.

Yesterday I received the new Wild Unknown tarot deck (which you can read about here), and after a thorough shuffle and thanks I conducted what is called a “deck interview.”

I asked the deck the following questions…

What kind of tarot deck are you? What card sums up your personality?
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I am a deck of new beginnings that are prosperous and fruitful. I enjoy helping people succeed with their finances and material security.
What issues/areas of life do you specialize in?
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I help you see things clearly and see the facts. I am very knowledgeable but I can be blunt. When your emotions muddle your thoughts I will help you cut through the nonsense and see what is really going on.
How can you best help me?
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I can help you when you are sad and feeling heartbroken. I will lift you out of your gloom.
What quality is most important in a tarot reader?
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A tarot reader needs to be strong and determined to see what is being revealed. Working with the tarot can be challenging and a tarot reader must have a strong will to become a master.
How do you see our relationship?

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Ouch! You see our relationship as a burden? I promise to go easy on you and to take your advice the first time you give it so you won’t feel so overwhelmed at the thought of working with me.
I look forward to a long, prosperous relationship with the Wild Unknown. I hope you find the perfect deck (or decks) to bond with on your tarot journey!

The Wild Unknown 

Diving into the Wild Unknown

(This post contains expletives)

Here in the United States, yesterday was Election Day, but I will more fondly remember yesterday at the day MY MOTHERFUCKING WILD UNKNOWN tarot deck finally arrived!

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I was so excited to finally have this deck in my possession, having ordered it on September 25th and being forced to wait what felt like forever. Once I took it out of the Amazon packaging I promptly poured myself a big glass of wine and filmed my first unboxing video, which I immediately deleted because it was so terrible. I’m not made for film, folks.

The deck and guidebook did not disappoint. I am honestly so impressed with every aspect of this deck. Kim Krans created a beautiful work of art when she designed these tarot cards and the packaging for them is just as exquisite. The kit contains a gorgeous, sturdy guidebook that is really well done. I find the card meanings align very closely to a traditional Rider Waite deck, though the art is certainly different. The card stock is pretty good, maybe a little thin, but far better than some other decks (Thoth and the Gilded Tarot, for example).

The biggest distinction with this deck is that is features only animals, no people. For some that may be a turnoff, but it wasn’t a problem for me.

The court cards feature owls (swords), snakes (wands), swans (cups),  and deer (pentacles). Here are the “Fathers” of the court, aka the Kings.

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Now, I present to you some of my favorite cards from this truly rewarding deck.
The Majors:
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The Devil (this reminds me of Black Philip in The Witch): Addiction and Negativity
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The Chariot: Strong Will and Triumph
The Minors:

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Nine of Swords: I know the worms aren’t visually appealing, but there is nothing appealing about the Nine of Swords. Dark visions and Anguish

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Ten of Wands: Burdens, Blockage, Difficulty
 

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Ten of Cups: Radiating Energy

I am enthralled by the artwork on this deck and highly recommend it to anyone who may be considering adding this to their collection. I am looking forward to using this for my daily readings.

 

Prep Work 

Preparing for a Tarot Reading

I am an intuitive reader who prides herself on honest and open readings, and I consider it an honor and privilege to connect with spirit and help people. I am committed to an ethical spiritual practice and ensuring that my clients are satisfied with their readings.

Tarot readings are a tool for providing you with divine guidance in life. I take my responsibility as a tarot reader very seriously. If I cannot establish a connection with you and spirit, I will end the reading and refund your money. Most of the time, however, spirit shows up and information will begin to flow.

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My office, encapsulated by the Florida sun.
A reading can greatly benefit people who are open and empowered to take control of their lives. I believe the future is predictable, but not predetermined. We have the power to change the future and that power lies in our day-to-day actions. In a tarot reading, we will analyze where you are. We can then look at your future and give you an idea of what you can expect if you stay on your current path. If you do not like what the cards predict, we can discuss strategies to change your outcome.

It’s easy to get a reading from me – even if you are across an ocean. Spirit doesn’t require that we be in the same place at the same time. I am able to connect energetically with only your name, though I find a photo and birthday to be very helpful in establishing a connection.

If you are on the fence, please check out testimonials from my clients. If you have questions you can always contact me here (it may take up to 24 hours for me to respond).

Visit my Book a Reading page and locate the kind of reading you want. Payment will be sent through PayPal. I will contact you within 24-48 hours to confirm that I have received your payment and verify the details of the reading you wish to receive.

Once you have ordered a reading please send me your name and date of birth. I also need you to send me your question and the method through which you wish to receive your reading. You may send any additional information or other necessary details about your situation if you wish. I find a photo can be helpful in connecting with a long-distance client, and the birthday allows me to delve more fully into astrology which complements the tarot.

Here are tips to prepare for a phone, Skype, or Facebook Messenger reading:

  • I will call/contact you at our scheduled time. If you do not answer or respond, your payment will be forteited.
  • Make sure you are in a quiet space and will not be interrupted.
  • Prepare your questions in advance.
  • Refrain from asking the same question again and again – this will never produce a good reading.
  • The future is not predetermined! If you do not like something that comes up in a reading, know that you always have free will and can alter your life any way that you wish.
  • Timing is the hardest thing to predict. A tarot reading can only give a general outlook on timing.

 Here are tips for an email reading:

  • Make your question as specific as possible.
  • If you have requested a general reading, you may respond with three follow up questions. Once completed, your reading is done. If you want to continue to go deep on a question, it may be best for you to seek a phone reading instead.
  • You may ask between 1 – 3 follow up questions within several days of the reading and I will gladly respond.
  • Do not try to wrap more than one question into one. It may confuse the energy of the reading.  One thing at a time is always best and leads to a more focused answer.
  • Timing is the hardest thing to predict. A tarot reading can only give a general outlook on timing.

Final Notes:

  • Please refer to my ethics and business policies here. I will not perform readings on medical, health, pregnancy, or any other issues for which I am not qualified.
  • I do not “tarot stalk,” meaning I will not read to pry into someone else’s life except for how it may intersect with your own.
  • Once I receive payment and your information, all readings are usually completed within 24-48 hours. If you book a reading over the weekend or during holidays it may take longer but I will be in communication immediately as to timeline.
  • I reserve the right to refuse to read for any client and will refund any money paid.
  • I will not read for anyone under 18.